I got an answer from her today. "I respect your
decision. Let me know when you are ready k?" Omg! What kind of answer is this?
Wouldn't you need to reflect on your own first? Do you think that what you are
doing has absolutely no problem and all these problems are entirely mine? You gotta
be kidding me right? Just because I have feeling to you, that make the entire problem
mine? I am confused with life value now. Should I continue to treat people well?
Believing in what are you giving right now will get paid off later? I am so
lost right now. All the believes that I had on you are totally gone. I feel
like I am one of the “soldier of goddess of mercy” of you, which I have absolute zero
of acceptance. I feel so cheap right now. I am hurt. Totally hurt.
